Ben rarely thought about love and the Force in the same context. He thought about the Force and obsessive, murderous love. He thought about the Force and vicious hatred and jealousy in the name of love. The Force as it connected to these loves, these gentle loves he had somehow found himself entangled in, that was incomprehensible. All the Force could do was ruin it, as it had for so many other Jedi.
His mother is right. It's just hard to accept, even as she says it. "I cannot help but worry that I am beyond merely non-ideal and am... beneath them. They deserve so much more than I can give them. More time, more affection, more physical affection, more of a future than just 'one day the war will be over'. I don't have as much to offer them as they can offer me, on every level." Let him gush about his awesome partners, Leia, and how much they make his life better.
"BB-8 asked Jessika Pava if she would ever date a droid. That bought us a solid breakfast together, although if you see pilots telling BB-8 there are plenty of stars in the galaxy, that'd be why." He grins, despite himself. "Force bless that droid, though if that's proof that children take after their parents, Poe and I should avoid having any until we mature a bit."
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Date: 2017-08-10 06:14 am (UTC)His mother is right. It's just hard to accept, even as she says it. "I cannot help but worry that I am beyond merely non-ideal and am... beneath them. They deserve so much more than I can give them. More time, more affection, more physical affection, more of a future than just 'one day the war will be over'. I don't have as much to offer them as they can offer me, on every level." Let him gush about his awesome partners, Leia, and how much they make his life better.
"BB-8 asked Jessika Pava if she would ever date a droid. That bought us a solid breakfast together, although if you see pilots telling BB-8 there are plenty of stars in the galaxy, that'd be why." He grins, despite himself. "Force bless that droid, though if that's proof that children take after their parents, Poe and I should avoid having any until we mature a bit."