"They do. When I have nightmares or trouble sleeping, I sleep in Poe's bed - not like that," he added sharply, cheeks coloring immediately, "Just to be able to wake up and not I'm not in the First Order or at Luke's. Rey found us and we had an incredibly awkward, incredibly long conversation. It took most of the night. Rey and Poe are still processing things, but they vetoed the option of simply giving up on the whole endeavor." That had been Ben's first thought, that it was over, that neither of them would want him once they knew his affections were split.
Then Rey stubbornly pulled him into a hug and told him to quit being dramatic, Poe had nodded and said she was right, and they'd worked out that as unusual as it was, as strange as the concept even was to them, given they'd all been self-contained in various ways for a long time, they were going to try.
"Rey climbed into bed with us and I... all around me, all I felt through the Force was love. Love, Light, hope, wrapped up into something pure and selfless. I still feel I don't deserve this, or them, but I just cannot picture how this could lead to the darkness and evil I was warned it would during my Jedi training. I know the doctrine exists for good reasons, but I have two very good reasons to disregard it.
As you may have guessed, I was never involved with anyone romantically in the First Order. None of this is familiar territory. I am trying but I am lost, Mother."
And if she could make things work with his father, a pairing no one saw coming, then perhaps she could help puzzle this out, too.
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Date: 2017-04-16 12:15 am (UTC)Then Rey stubbornly pulled him into a hug and told him to quit being dramatic, Poe had nodded and said she was right, and they'd worked out that as unusual as it was, as strange as the concept even was to them, given they'd all been self-contained in various ways for a long time, they were going to try.
"Rey climbed into bed with us and I... all around me, all I felt through the Force was love. Love, Light, hope, wrapped up into something pure and selfless. I still feel I don't deserve this, or them, but I just cannot picture how this could lead to the darkness and evil I was warned it would during my Jedi training. I know the doctrine exists for good reasons, but I have two very good reasons to disregard it.
As you may have guessed, I was never involved with anyone romantically in the First Order. None of this is familiar territory. I am trying but I am lost, Mother."
And if she could make things work with his father, a pairing no one saw coming, then perhaps she could help puzzle this out, too.